i could have considered to answer that and break the chain or to not answer that and make you feel worse... there were many things i wanted to tell you... but hearing your voice, i decided not to cuz i didnt want you to be more hurt... there were many decisions i had to make... i wanted to give up... i wanted to despise love and shun it forever... i wanted to think that this kind of stuff will never ever happen on me... no happily ever after... not for me.. i once said i wanted the two of you out of my life and i decided that the time is right about now... my phone shows me evidence that i should let go and concentrate on what i am supposed to be doing... [once bitten, twice shy] i dun want to be hurt again... i don't want myself to be worried about unnecessary things like this anymore... cuz i've had enough of it... it's about time i buck up and do the right things...