finally my letter came!!!! top 10% yay!! but need to buy whole family breakfast... father say one x.x but hope he only kidding XD but also nvm la... only once in a while, anyway also for family haha

maple finally lvl 48! got new equip from buddy~ thx alot!! haha

thats all!

just cuz i said a few things about you, you have to ignore me?? well if that's the case, congrats, you got ur wish... time to say GOODBYE! if you believe her so much more than when you trusted me, then i hope the two of you will last VERY VERY VERY LONG UNTIL YOU TWO DIE DISAPPEAR.

amksian showcase was ok ok today... first time sing was damn epic fail but the second time is better than the first... eugene go extra at the back of the audience, make me feel like laughing :D said hi to lionel about three times?? saw zhen yu and zhen yu twice, nickson once, and mr not-my-friend-anymore once. see him then turn away and lay his head on the table, pretend nvr see me...

today in school wear full black, damn warm! but cant be compared with how sick i felt today x.x almost gonna break down and faint liao... when made it home, bathe and wait for hair to dry... but in between i fell asleep but forced to wake up thanks to mum... then went downstairs for some deepavali thingy and in the end i'm here blogging and feeling alot better :P had fun today haha got my mind away from school things so quite relaxed... just finish chat with shu yuan and he says he going off liao... tmr 9 he wont be in singapore cuz he going china liao haha :) have fun daddy!!

thx those who tagged me!!! and sorry for not blogging foor two days or something~ anyway, finally started playing MAPLE again!!!! those who wanna play with me can sms me or when you see me, can tell me kays?? anyway, i play aquila de horr. not that i dun have other accounts but others damn lousy so i dun wanna play them anymore haha XD

btw, i still quite lousy though i level 40+ le... pump wrong skill x.x haha anyway, you wan play with me, anytime! just tell me can le~

THANKS!

难道我真的要把你忘了吗？你就连那句话也不能跟我说一次吗？那好吧。我就从今天开始永远不会再同情你了。早就不应该这样的，我却笨起来，真傻啊！那就再见了！

heyhey!!

made my very first sauce for spaghetti today and was a success!!!!!!!!!!! it made my bro and i full, couldnt stuff anymore food inside our tummies XD it was damn fun in the kitchen with my mum, trying to put in different ingredients inside the sauce... and yay! it turned out good :) can improve a little bit more but still a good first time (: first dish i cooked for dinner XD tasted damn nice, like something you have never eaten before ;D

now finding recipes for a game... finally found it!! phew! looked through many websites and finally came to the correct one... after this, going to find the heart events... :)

THAT'S ALL!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hey bitch! saw you today~ shouldnt have acted so rash... i mean, seriously, who cares if i see you!!! not like you will come to me with a big fat chopper in your hand and try to kill me from my back~ please...if you were stupid enough to do that, you would have done it a long long time ago~ who knows, i might even still survive after you stab me and report you to the police~ you cant escape~

I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU ANYMORE! IF YOU THINK I AM SOOOOO WEAK, YOU ARE VERY WRONG... DREAMS CAN TEACH SUCH WONDERFUL LESSONS... HA HA HA HA!

another letdown...

我看我真的已经想把你忘掉了。世上有很多东西我可以去烦恼，却选择去为你烦恼，为你做了我不应该浪费时间做的事情。可惜啊可惜，多谢你不尊重我，害自己失去了一个朋友。你每一次都说不喜欢失去，但这次是你害自己的，你已经没有我这个朋友了！你要我给你一次机会，好。但是只有一个！你再伤害我，我就会这样默默地离开你，连一声再见也不会说。你只需要知道你伤到我很深，别的不许要知道。谢谢你！

just experienced a few minutes/hours of losing a family member... it taught me alot more about treasuring people around you... but, it taught me this too: i have other things to worry about other than those things that i do not encounter everyday, like problems in school... so now i finally made up my mind, to give 100% of my heart to my family and not give it to crushes or what-nots in other places... my heart is right here, only in my family... i am not selfish, i dun wan to lose one person so dear to me just cuz of something not as important...

someone help me!!!!!!!!!!

please help me get rid of him.... even if you have to knock me until i get amnesia... even if i have to forget everyone from my life... even if in the end i die instead... get him out of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the dream i had... its all a fantasy... it will NEVER EVER EVER COME TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i was given a choice, i would choose never to be born... so i wont meet you or any of those assholic people out there who have nothing better to do... but i cant turn it back now... all i can do is to face up to it and pluck up all the courage i have to forget you ... ._.

if anyone of you ever saw my blog and this post, i only have one thing to tell you, stop ruining other people's life... dunno how many times i tell you all this le... so stop making me waste my time on YOU! i am given a choice to bother or not you noe? but i choose to get involved in this so i wont regret it... even if it means getting hurt or hated... you all are not so IMMATURE am i right?? if you get it, thank you alot!!!

3rd day and almost the end le!!!

4 more days and he's back!! muahahahaha!!! finally can see him... i dunno when but ya... all i noe, he is near me... in this country, in this school... haha <3

i wish i could tell you how to change but you no longer accept this kind of things from your friends... i will tell you here then :) please dun change your mind at the very very last minute... and just cuz your friend wont be here for some time, doesnt mean she wont be back again!!! dun need to spend so much time with her... i hope i have a right to say in this though you two are friends....just cuz you wanna spend time with your friend, doesnt mean you can leave important things behind!!!! stop complaining!!! wats the point if you complain since you still have to go!!! in the end, you still have to rush there... you almost got me dead when you stayed behind to talk to your friend and i had to wait for you!! just cuz your ex wanted you to change, i hope you dun hate ppl who tell you to change... i hope you listen... thank you... :)

2nd day...

today is the second day of his trip :D hope the days go by faster... so i can like finally sms him or call him!!! today hit my head when mum pushed the door without knowing i was directly behind it... ouch~ still indecisive over wat to wear for the concert... wat is counted as formal sia!!!!!!!!!!!! blah blah blah blah blah!!!!

hope to be able to watch harry potter with pearleen~ at least one person bahh... haix but dunno whether parents allow??? haha nvm... if miss one part, i'm gonna blame them... haha

me and brother share the same fate... have to spend 7 days without contacting the ones we love.... mine has started, his is coming soon... actually in december!! OMG... his girlfriend liao lorr... at least he isnt like my boyfriend or anything so i can bear with it~ :) LOVE CONQUERS ALL!!! <3

bad luck day ...

omg... now's like raining... wonder if he is taking care of himself... hope he doesn't get himself in the rain... dunno why but i keep saying i missing him... anyway, dunno it's cuz of wat but today my very very bad luck day...

first day of his trip and i somehow broke my ankle... still hurting now but only a lil'... but at least i can still move around... then again made my bro get into trouble but i also got into trouble myself >< not on purpose de mahh... sad luhh... now like no one pei me talk talk... miss how we used to talk in facebook and through sms but thanks to my stupid phone(!!!!), i made lesser contact with him... haix... then he sometime nvr on facebook... so damn miss him now!!!!!!!!!!!!!

literature new novel for next year: weedflower!!! OMG! so touching!!!!!!!!! taught me the value of friendship!!!! :) somehow kinds of remind me of him and me... OMG!!!!!!!!!!! still thinking about him!!!!! argh nvm... anyways, a msg from my mind to him: take care and dun hurt yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally finish the survey so THEY wont bother me anymore!!!!!!! yays~~~~

To: Pearleen and Chuan Hwee,

i'm also looking forward to december!!!! but i scared cuz of the recent murders, my dad wont allow me to like go out... but i will try to get him to let me so, still lokking forward to it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha :D
IVY <3 you two!!!!

stupid stupid stupid!!!!

stupid bad things happen on me continuously!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid phone cannot get back ! only can after 7-14 days!! stupid la!!!!! then now survey also cannot do, cannot open the file then must by TODAY give!!!!! not even the deadline la!!!!!!!!!!! think i very easy bully ah??? too bad, if i try it again, cant open, i'm not gonna do it! the deadline is on the 19 of november!!!!! by today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go die la cjb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11.11.10, overseas trip is getting nearer!!!!!!

first overseas trip i ever experienced with my teenage mind and 13-year-old look is finally here!!!!! 6-9 december trip to port dickson, malaysia~ so excited!! omg! safety is the first priority though... must go back to sigapore in ONE piece~

remind him then dun remind me la! lousy person. just cuz you hate me just like that f-ing bitch then can regard me as an unimportant member of the class lorr.. FINE!!!! I DUN WANNA FUCKING CARE ABOUT THIS CLASS ANYMORE! IT'S NOT WORTH MY FREAKING TIME AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUN EVER EVER EVER GET ME TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE! AND IF I AGREE WITH YOU, THANK MY 良心!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy :D:)^^ , then angry :(

WOW today was like damn fun back in mfps~ many people saw me and waved ^^ even those that i never particularly talked to also said hi to me~ after saying wat i wanted to say, i went to the back of all the classes then people start calling my name>< lols! shouldn't have made the teachers introduce me but it was still fun~

saw ms dinah! she now teaching english in p6 class and still looks the same after that~ must call her like 5 times then she turn around and saw me... when she saw me, she was like suddenly burst out and surprise me... then we talk for a while and she had to go do other things...

when outside the general office, saw yang lao shi. called her and she actually still remembered me!!!! yay! then we talk for a while too then she went off.. haha

a message from me to all those ppl out there: if i were you, stop messing others life! hating others wont do you any good... however, it will bring you more misery cuz you know that person is still alive and you have to try your hardest to destroy that person... stop doing ridiculous things like that if not you will worry yourself too much and become older more easily... make this world a better place lahh... no point in doing this when you still haven't found true happiness in your life... enjoy your life to the fullest! who knows when you might just go...(touchwood!!) but please, dun waste your time just doing all these unnecessary things...

that's all for today~ blah blah blah~

only at the end of the day i get soooo frustrated~

hey you all who hate her, if she didnt do anything WRONG, why dun you bitches just leave her alone?! just cuz she tell teacher wat happen you all must hate her is it??she is not trying to destroy their reputation or wat shit, she's trying to make them change!!! you all treat her de attitude is like WTF and you all still scold her when she delete you all??? LOSER? I THINK THAT YOU ALL ARE THE LOSERS, NOT HER. DUN TRY TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE HATE HER OKAY? JUST CUZ SHE IS SAD, SHE CRY, IS A OFFENCE? YOU ALL NEVER CRY BEFORE IS IT! WHAT THE FREAKING HELL YOU ALL WANT MORE FROM HER! YOU WANT MAKE HER PERISH JUST LIKE THAT AH?? sorry to tell you all this but, there wont only be her bf backing her up... I WILL BACK HER UP! ever heard of having one more friend is better than having one more enemy ? all of you dun understand the meaning and value of life! wtf... the thing she needs now is people to help her change, not to make her feel worse and make her remain as the way she is now! bloody assholes uhh you all!

sorry but thats all i have for today...

seventh day of eleventh month :)

yesterday went for bbq at cousin house until very very late, around 11 plus then reach home so nvr blog... haha! finally forget le~ 现在应该没喜欢人家了。感觉好轻松哦！终于能放松，过着自己在这两个月里想要的日子了！YAY!!!!!!!!!!
Mummy~ sorry i keep your file with me for so long~ no phone in these few days, so cant get your call and pass the file to you~ sorry!!!!!! anyway, if you dunno wat to do within these few days(sorry to tell you this so late), call my house number: 65556153. thanks and sorry~ haha
sorry watching 爱 now haha :) stupid yang zhengjie should give up on lele lorr... now cause her death, still cry... lousy asshole guy... shixian dun even noe yet... lucky yangzhengjie going to die in the end ;D haha
sorry got nothing to blog about today so i'll end here~ byee

deep in thought....

some secrets are meant to be untold... but if that is about me, then i truely understand... if not, i have totally no idea who you are talking about... dun make me go emo and crack my head before i find the answer to my questions...

if only i could scold all the vulgarities right in his face but i cant... guess i'm pretty weak huh... now i'm asking myself why i still like him and why does he keep hurting me without him noticing it... now i'm asking myself why i get jealous over such little things? is it cuz i like him tooooooooooo much or is it cuz i'm selfish? please... they used to be together... cant blame him for that... nvm bahh... its all over... i'm finally giving up on him... it's only a matter of time... but too bad for him, i won't like him again...
finally got hold of myself ^^ now it's so much clearer to me... so many better guys out there and i had to choose a loser like him... you are obviously NOT worth my effort, time and tears.. have fun and good luck trying to win her heart back... but i doubt you will~ =)=D

=D =) =( D= >< ^^ ='(

starting of the day and i already did something that made me regret D: why did i ask him that freaking question? shoudn't have lorr... make me feel like wanting him again >< argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! should have just ignored him until school reopens ... saw him in school too!! OMG...

(Its for you...) if you meant me, so have i... i dun need you anyways... i can have more friends than you do.. i don't talk bad about people like you do, i dun do anything until they forgive me for wat i have done that they think might be wrong... i do things to make them forgive me and not get other people to hate them too. i experienced this before so dun think you are smarter than me in this things. if they dun forgive me, i dun mind. i can still have other friends that can share my happiness and troubles. in this world, no one needs so many friends. once you dun have money, they will drift away with your money, leaving you there to cry all alone... i can only have a small group of friends and i dun mind. as long as they are not so bitchy or idiotic like you!

Mummy!!!! how could you tell me such disgusting things~ i feel so freaked out and i cant stop thinking about it... anyway, never tell me anymore of these things unless i am old enough and i want to know... thanks alot! <3 you

[i dunno how but please make me hate you and forget you... i dun wanna think of you and get other people to contact you for my own benefit... they have better things to do then help me do that... make me forget and/or hate you to the very max!!! and i will thank you with my life]

3rd November...

ARGH! Phone spoil le... darn it sia! going home after sending mummy to mrt there, check phone, suddenly blackout! lols... need to send it to sony ericcson to fix again liao... sianz

got some assholes bitch me today. good la when holidays start they all treat me like i dun exist but still pretend to be nice to me >< during school terms, they treat me like ok-ok cuz they noe got teacher that will look out... then now, treat me like: 'aiya she bitch la, dun care her. she's a ghost wandering around us, we cant see her~' asshole right? idiotic~

got darling to sms him today~ not that i shud care or anything but hey! still friends ba... saw the entire group of badminon ppl today... zhenyu saw me i think... saw darling at library today haha so funny lols!

MUMMY, WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU SO LET'S BE HAPPY AND DUN CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT US KAYS?? <3 you! haha =D

hellooooooooooo

heyheys~ second blog till now! first blog might be terribly dead now but if you wan, check it out: http://www.busy-busy-me.blogspot.com/ haha
anyways, here are some messages i would like to tell some ppl:
No.1 msg: thx for deleting me bitch. i would have done the same, but sadly i was KIND enough not to... too bad you are not that much of a KIND person bleh!
No.2 : if you think that i care so much about the thing you received from him, then you are so wrong girl! i dun particularly care~ anyways, its not my problem, its yours. obviously he still likes you! why cant you tell? stop making me think that i'm jealous... i'm not, and i noe it...

haha shouldn't be so angry on the first post but haha just some thoughts... haha GET WELL SOON MUMMY!!! i wanna see you at choir !!!