4 days of not blogging...

4 days nvr blog but so much happened... like friday, choose class com...
die liao, her name was on the board. obviously i nvr choose her cuz i tot if she would treat me this way, she would also be able to abuse her powers if she was class committee.
during the weekend, i tot about everything that happened between me and her. realised that she might not be the bad one at all! it might be me who is the cruel one... so i promised myself i will listen to her if everyone chose her as class committee.
today,during pe she hurt herself and got hit on the face or something... but when i went back to class to ask about her, i realised i was just shedding crocodile tears cuz i dun care about it at all.. i was thinking about that and i realised that its true - i was shedding crocodile tears... so i told myself, if i didnt have the heart to think about it, i rather not ask about it either... if i didnt have the heart to care, i rather not ask and mind my own business...
then in the evening, SOMEBODY sms me!!! wth sia.. i see that message i was like ____... then not only that, i called him an asshole instead of calling michelle XD epic misunderstanding lorr... guess he was laughing at himself :D

i think you wont be able to accomplish what you want to accomplish. cuz obviously, you are still thinking about him. what you tell me, they are all lies. you cant do it... i can bet that you cant do it. if you continue to post stupid things on facebook talking about him, i tell you, i bet 100% you wont be able to forget him.

Number 1 : EUGENE CHOW CAN NEVER EVER BE TRUSTED WITH A SECRET

Number 2 : HE JUST GOT WRONG INFO FROM ME xD

Number 3 : I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!

while turning back to talk to some people, saw him. he just walked past me without saying anything, obviously... and then i sms her, she tell me he ask her for stead... i was like, walao why this info also tell me >< F*** MY LIFE. not only that, my heart crunched up and it was so small and blazing with hatred... it was saying, "I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!" there was even a scene in my head when i shouted at him until i cry sia... -_- i'm so freaking useless... i ws so filled with hatred, i wanted to just sms him to tell him that but in the end, my heart stopped me... i even greeted my brother nicely despite all the fury in my body... i just realised it was so easy to keep myself calm... its so easy for me... SO COOL! :D

THANKS SAMOEUL AND YONG LE FOR HELPING ME HAND HIM SOMETHING :D THANKS ALOT AND IF I HAVE THE TIME, I GO BUY SOMETHING FOR YOU TWO ^^ ONCE AGAIN, THANKS YOU GUYS!!!! (i just realised you two that are willing to help me are from anderson primary... anderson people must be very kind-hearted (: )

i'm wasting messgaes on you again... you are replying my messages with less than 5 messages... you useless crap, you may have unlimited messages but you save them for something that doesn't care about you... I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE!!!!!!!!!

you still came to school toady didnt you... i give up on you le... you want to be this way, i am fine with it... its pointless if i ever tell you anything cuz YOU WONT LISTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!! so many things i tell you and its as though it came out of the other ear... if you want your leg to become worse, go for it, its not my problem anymore...

i'm indecisive now... i dunno whether i still wanna be with you... i'm getting influenced by people around... i dun wanna lose more friends because i'm with you... i dunno wat to do anymore... i want to but its like my duty to help you... ARGH!! i dunno wat to do!!!

in a severe state of depression, dun come disturb me ._.

today's straw bridge competition was fun :D worked with different people and gained new experiences. but didnt know yan hao could sulk all the way after he knew our group didnt win XD

get well soon! every part of your body is important. but if you tire it too much, you will be even worse than this. so try not to overdo it, if not, i wont have any more advice for you

there are so many things to write about but the only things i actually remember are:

1) dun call me a bitch. how bout you? please, i saw you mouthing the words... i can report you anytime i want...

2) its very tiring to wait for you so i want to give up seriously... i'm tired... i cant concentrate... its worthless to think of you every minute....

I WANT TO FORGT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in less than 5 hours i will be able to sms people!!!

i wonder what you meant by half-half... sadly, it got me thinking about you for the entire day... i wished i never found out... obviously i was lying to myself again... i was happy >< i dun think i can forget you so easily for now... but sooner or later when we return to being friends, we will get into a fight... i'm almost 100% sure... so its pretty much no point thinking about it... sad... guess its really over...

i know i shouldnt have called you... but my mind was somewhere else but my hands were clicking at my phone and by the time i knew anything, i was calling you... you dun expect me to put down the phone when there were like already two rings or something right??? but when you answered, i tried to be nice but you just answered me in that 'i dun care' voice... wtf do you want? ya i know you dun need me to call you... then fine! why should i care then! you still asked why i was angry?! now i'm angrier, and disappointed in you... i dun want to see you again but you just keep appearing!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!! GET OUT OF MY ALREADY-MISERABLE LIFE WILL YOU? you even appear in my dreams today... i shouted at you in some room then when i went back to that room, you were gone... that was the perfect dream to describe my anger towards you... great, shouldnt have apologised... you dun even noe wat you did wrong!!!!!!!!!!!

ignoring you won't do any good to me but i still have to... i'm still angry at you for saying those words to me>< i saw your name in someone's phone... i thought of you... i cant believe it... everytime i walk past your class, i cant bring myself to look inside to look for you... i dun want to see you at all... but nowadays you keep appearing in front of me... why? i dun want to see you anymore... >< i cant bear with it... i want to reply you, call you but i keep forcing myself not to... i keep telling myself there's no point in communicating with you... cuz in the end we will still get into a fight, and i dun wan another fight to hurt me even more... so i'm trying to give up with alot of effort...... :'(

yay~ 4 more days till i can finally sms :D finally! if not, i would die from boredom when people sms me when i cant reply... xP

3 messages and 1 missed call ><

today has got to be the most interesting first day of the week i have ever seen in my freaking life... first time i saw assault that was happening right in front of me!!!! but its best not to be mentioned...

when you saw wat happened, did you have to freaking stare at it like its not ur business? i mean, that person is ur friend.. when i looked at you, you were only showing the freaking blur face of yours, i can just go up there and tear that mouth away from you... right there, you and i saw it, we were both shocked, i had no right, but you did! you freaking loser!

why did i have to see you... you appeared right in front of me like dunno how many times... you do it on purpose one or wat? stop annoying me... the sight of you irks me to the freaking core... even if you need me, i wont be there for you anymore... cuz you got wat you want... you dun nid no freaking friends anymore ><

so wat if i'm poor? dun nid to call me a freaking maid! you are such an ass... do it again, you are dead!

had a bad experience with worms today... while walking back home, and talking on the phone, something dropped on my palm, i looked at it, and stun. i tried flinging it off but there was some web that was sticking on my hand and the caterpillar. tried to fling it off some more and luckily it came off my hand. when i entered the lift, i turned to look at my skirt and found that darned thing still on me!!! so i tried to get it off but in the end failed so i overreacted when i reached home and screamed for help. finally my mum took a tissue and got it off... phew!!