i'm sorry. i can't tolerate that well. when i say i've had enough, it's not a joke. so i cannot tolerate people who keep repeating what they say, over and over about that same subject. the longest i can go is a week, maybe a few more days but if i hear it everyday, i might only be able to go for only 5 days. when there is a way to resolve it, i dun want to tell, i wan you to know what to do and act on it. dun just say, DO IT. unless you wan me to resort to stopping our friendship or even force you to stop doing it again and again... if not, i totally give up on you and let you do what you want while i pretend i'm listening or looking and daydream... i might even pretend to listen to everything you say and do something else instead. i will let my mind drift off if i find it unnecessary to listen..

i could have considered to answer that and break the chain or to not answer that and make you feel worse... there were many things i wanted to tell you... but hearing your voice, i decided not to cuz i didnt want you to be more hurt... there were many decisions i had to make... i wanted to give up... i wanted to despise love and shun it forever... i wanted to think that this kind of stuff will never ever happen on me... no happily ever after... not for me.. i once said i wanted the two of you out of my life and i decided that the time is right about now... my phone shows me evidence that i should let go and concentrate on what i am supposed to be doing... [once bitten, twice shy] i dun want to be hurt again... i don't want myself to be worried about unnecessary things like this anymore... cuz i've had enough of it... it's about time i buck up and do the right things...

i have been considering this the entire day... should i send you message?? i don't think that will be the best thing to do but i really feel that i should send you message... i seriously want to tell you how i feel... at least about our friendship ya? that it might be coming to an end... i'm seriously very indecisive now... i really want to at least talk to you like we used to... but thinking about the message i might be sending you, i think it will never happen again... never ever...

first thing i did when i log on: go to facebook. feeling happy, i click on my profile. sadly, the first thing i saw was your name... ><

you may be older than me, but that doesn't mean you can bully me. stop pushing all the bloody blame to me and make me sound like an asshole who doesnt even noe anything about pulsing. please... you are the one that is slow... you should listen to yourself for a change! i admit it that i get distracted sometimes but i get back on track again.. i bet you are the one that upon hearing others being faster than you so you speed up and then realise that you are singing faster and you THINK you are listening to me but NO~ i mean, who can hear themselves when the others are so damned bloody loud? if you continue doing that, i tell you, one day when i'm in a very ver bad mood, you are going to get it from me!

intensive training tomorrow =D bet it's gonna be 'fun' (in a way)

WOW tmr is the amksian family day~ gonna be running the 3.1km :D today went to run with michelle and calvin. ended up walking from yck stadium to bishan stadium and then back to yck XD both stadiums were occupied so in the end its like before even officially running, we have already walked for more than 3.1km... -_-'' but then, still managed to run for around 3 rounds or so... x)

i mean, wat's the problem with you?? i only need to use the com for a while and you go crazy and scold me like i'm such an ass?! on normal days i wouldnt have quarrelled with you but sadly, today my mood is swinging like hell so too bad, you got shouted back by me. count yourself lucky if i didnt do something bad to you...

i finally found out something about you - you always think that whatever happens to you is other people's fault. i think you are sooooooo wrong. cuz whatever happens to yourself, is cuz of something you did, not wat others do to you. something so dreadful that everyone can go against you... sigh... tsk tsk tsk... you dun even noe wat is wrong with you...

i feel so awful... i guess it's cause i'm getting too many complaints about other people's own relationships, I'M FREAKING OUT!!! its not like i'm involved in them.. so why do ppl just keep spamming me about their own complicated stuff and wont just leave me alone?? i dare say that i dun wanna care anymore. if i ever receive another complaint, i wont care about it at all. if i cant take it anymore, i will just rush off and ignore it..

i'm crying... oh shit... i'm supposed to be happy but no.. i'm not... its another load for me... wat to do... >< i feel like ending it here... all at once...

he still likes you... why won't you stop denying it? you know him more than me... yet i know he still likes you when you deny it and say he didn't say it... without him saying, it's still so easy to know his mind... it's so obvious, his answer is at the tip of your tongue yet you deny it... haix... if you feel that way...

i'm going in depression mode, i'm going to go emo... if i can control, there won't be cuts or loss of blood... ><

难道我只能默默地在你后面跟着你吗？难道我只能在无人知下为你祈祷吗？我知道你根本都没有想到我是这样看你的，可是我真的觉得你这种人没有朋友就算了，有自己和你所爱的人就可以了。我相信你到现在还一点也不知道我已经没有和你交流了。因为你只需要她与你的友谊就够满意了。我却觉得失去你会带给我很大的痛苦，可是我还得坚持下去，把你忘得一干二净。你知道这样对我有多难吗？我看，你应该根本连想都不去想。。。

Your behaviour and even the sight of you irks me. If i was given a choice, i would ignore you till the day i graduate. so what if you have that? must you show off every once in a while? You know something? THIS is what makes people HATE you sooooooo much... You know what, you SHOULD change... If you want to do something about it, YOU SHOULD DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. if not, sooner or later, i dare to bet with you, someone as tolerating as me, will leave you and seriously leave you alone. I tell you, i have been tolerating your stupid and irksome and disgusting behaviour for a very very long time. If i were other people, i tell you, you wouldn't have any friends anymore. you should be happy that you have a friend that is able to tolerate your nonsense all the way unil now okay? so quit complaining and live you life! continue your nonsense, I BET YOU WON'T MIND LOSING A FRIEND LIKE ME!!!

are you willing to wait? I can't accept you until i'm ready... If you feel that it is a waste of your time waiting for me, then i don't mind, you are free to like someone else... cuz i dun wanna make you waste your time on someone like me... i can tell you this, people who like me can easily forget that feeling for me. i dunno whether you will be an exception but i'm just telling you cuz that happened to me several times... so i won't mind if you dun like me anymore... cuz i'm used to it too... no offence if i indirectly insulted you... hope you understand what i'm trying to say to you... :)