i must be crazy... why am i still thinking when i already know you won't care about me? why should i even care who you like? why should i care when i see your name everywhere i go to? why should i care that your picture is everywhere? why should i care when you don't even have the same feelings for me? Why should i even think about you when i know you will never ever think about me? you may think we are still close, but i don't think so... i completely, 100% think that the two of us are not close AT ALL! so why do i still look at you with hopeful eyes... how can i forget you, someone so unimportant in my life?

studies is my priority and i noe we are still young... but if i didnt care as much as i did about my studies, i would have chosen to be with you :) not that i like you alot but you managed to get my mind off that guy... i'm not gonna make use if you cuz like you said, we are good friends right?? who knows? i might like you sooner or later but i noe i MUST control myself...

IT MAY BE THE FIRST TIME, BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU WILL WAVER CUZ OF THAT AM I RIGHT?? You can control yourself the way you do with your anger, so this is not something you can't manage.. :D just don't think too much about it okay? it will be just fine as long as you don't do anything out of line... :)

HOLY MAMA HELP ME~! I'M STRESSED OFF BY YOU!!!!! OMG... i dunno wat's gotten into me... someone treats me nicely but i think the other way round... i think i've gone mad, i mean seriously...

eh, i wasted five sms on you, yet again you nvr reply, you go fly kite lahh!!! asshole...

hey all sorry for not blogging for i dunno how many days... lucky i completed my homework :D now desperately waiting fo rthe next day to come so i can return someone's bottle to him and i can then finish my chinese AMA ><

apparently, today i found out that someone has been stalking me in this blog and never told me till now... and not only that, i found out in 1 week that he is very neat and very nice sia~ not like the him i see... :D strange lols xP

whenever i see that you are no longer on my friends list in fb, i feel like my heart just went one step closer to death... but whenever i see you online, i do not dare to even click on ur name despite the hope of talking to you... but i tell myself this : "if i talk to you, we will still remain in the state we are now... cuz you dun care about me at all, you only care about something else" so i can only care about you behind your back, ask about you when i noe i shouldn't do it... sadly, i cant stop myself from thinking about you... i hear a sweet song, i think about you. in fact whatever i listen to i think of you... so hurting you noe that? thinking about someone like you , who practically dun care about anything...

The bad things happen again... Felt great to get a load of me when i handed you that thing, but another heavier load was dropped at me when i realised you only wished me that when i gave you something... Aren't you useless... I seriously don't know why i'm still fretting over you... It's not like you need my concern... You only need hers... Whatever your emotions are for the day, it all depends on how she treats you... I prefer not to give you anything anymore... In other words, i rather not give anyone anything AT ALL! They don't appreciate the thought nor the fact that i wanted to learn how to make some stupid heart just to make me have a sense of achievement that i got at least something for them... I'm already very happy to receive a balloon from AWESOME so i'm cool now... happy for the first time in my life that i received a valentine's day gift... so i'm cool and awesome now :D i feel wonderful just thinking about it xP

sorry for not updating this blog :D anyway, today's VALENTINE'S DAY~ HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYBODY ^^

today, the best valentine's day of my life!!! first time giving people gifts and not only that, first time getting gifts from people :DD thx to all those who gave me something:D it's the thought that counts ya?? and today, i feel random and 'cool' :D today definitely an awesome day :DDDDD thx to marcus teng, samoeul tan, michelle neo, and joey gue :DD LOVE YOU GUYS MAN!!! <3

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR TO ALL :D

happy new year :D had like two reunion dinners on the eve and on the exact day :DD
the one on the eve disgusted me actually... not very nice even when we had one abalone each.. the sauce isn't nice either but then it's still a reunion dinner so NO COMPLAINING!
the one on the exact day was the same as always, the best i could ask for in my family's state :D all in the day's work for my mummy :DD but then i dozed off while waiting for work to come to me and only woke up when all the work's done x.x

if that other half was mine, i dunno wat i would have to do... i'm in this situation when i get insulted yet i'm trying to let go... HOW can i let go when i was insulted without taking the necessary revenge?? it's unfair but my mum told me this, it's not like we are related to her, so watever happens, we don't have to hate her. even if she did wat she did, it's not like we have to get back, we can just pretend we didn't see it... i thought about this so i seriously let it go... the next step is how will i go up to her? not like i can just add her or something? it doesn't seem like it's the most appropriate thing to do... sad... i can't think of anything else that i can do... even if it doesn't happen in the end, i wouldn't mind, knowing wat she did to me before even if i have already let it go...

YAY HONGBAO! <3

why can't people just leave me alone... stop asking me all those kinds of questions! if you were me, would you feel uncomfortable answering this questions?! or shall i just give you an experience of getting spammed?? in the end, its like i still forgot about it but i dare to bet my life sooner or later, this news will be spread to the entire class... DAMN ANNOYING LEH!!!